Flood

A couple of weeks ago, I went to a worship night. I came into that evening not expecting for God to show up. I didn't even know that the usual schedule for the night was replaced... but by the end of worship I found myself the happiest that I had been in months, dancing without a care in the world.

Spiritual drought is rough. And while I don't totally understand why we go through times where God seems to be distant and silent, I know that it doesn't last forever, no matter how bad it gets, no matter how long it goes on.

Here's what I jotted down after I got home that Wednesday night:


"It's in these moments where I never want to leave.
The only thing in the world that I could fear is being away from him. To lose him from my life, and be separated from him forever. It's the worst thing that could possibly happen to me. And yet I don't even have to fear this... there is no way, no chance that I will ever lose him or be forgotten by him. In my world full of uncertainty... he is the one truth, the only guarantee.
So as I sit here in this moment, surrounded by my to do list, my french book sitting open next to me, scholarship due dates looming ahead and a whole uncertain world of college coming in a matter of months, I am so happy. I have all I need. I never want this feeling to end. I want to sit here forever with him. In nine short hours I will be getting up to start a new day, these feelings fade... but all this means is that I get to look forward to the next time I am filled up with him :)"


If you've ever felt like God's abandoned you, you're not alone. I've been there and so have others. But have hope and have faith. How you feel doesn't change who God is. He will show up when you least expect it. The drought will end and he will come flooding in. Don't give up.



-Emily